People say that love is the most precious thing in the world. It makes people the happiest, according to them. Then, I asked myself, “Why am I in burden? Why do I cry because of what they call love? Why do I suffer like this?”. Well, I’m still on my way to finding all the answers to my queries.
Everyday of my life, I cry. I am weak, I admit. And it’s love that makes me weak. People might look at me as a strong and happy person. What they are not aware of is that I’m breaking inside, my heart is falling apart, and my world? It’s so cold. It’s as if I’m in the middle of a snowy place, waiting for someone to wrap me with a warm embrace. I wish it was you. I wish you knew that I’m here, waiting to be loved by you. I wish you knew that I need you.
The problem with me is that I can’t tell you how I feel for you. Anyway, I can’t blame myself for I am really afraid. I might complicate things, and worse, I might put an end to the friendship we have now. Those things pop in my mind everytime I push myself to tell you everything.
Changes, changes, unending changes. We used to be so tight, but, what’s happening now? I can see you’re distancing yourself from me, and I can’t bother ask you why. Before, we used to exchange text messages for hours, but now? I am lucky if I get a hello from you. You used to approach me first through text, but now, I can say that I turned to someone ordinary in your list of contacts. It’s sad, but I told myself not to get mad at you. Changes are inevitable. So, here I am, praying and hoping that someday, the tight bond that we used to share will come back.
There are times when I think of giving up. But it’s my love for you that makes me strong and stand. However, it’s really unavoidable to think that I can never have you. I cry, I cry a lot. It’s so hard to wait around for something that, from the beginning, you know will never happen. But I admire myself. I am still here, for quite a long time now, waiting for you to love me back or at least, appreciate what I am doing for you.
I love you so much. I don’t mind the pain, the time I spend talking to you, the effort I exert just to approach you, the pride that I almost swallowed, everything. I’m looking forward to meeting you personally in the future. Take care always!